Feelings i can't call mine.

As I lay on my bed
heavy thoughts pounders my heart
darkness surrounds my world
my feelings turning into illusion
cast upon me by a charm of depression

Yet I put a smile
a smile to set a thousand free
free is the treasure my heart longs for
a feeling to bear fruits
love they say is every man's weakness
and a smile is all the world needs to alter its 'OK'

BUT truly the heart is troubled
tortured by my own feelings
like I have been throne into a dungeon
with endless voice
voices of immortality
fear that makes the spine quiver
a whole night

Yet frightened to let the eye close
to a point where only love makes sense
and it presence crumbles my world
my heart pledges peace but rages war
trapped in-between my thought
a decision to make
two hearts which looks like one
feelings which carries heavy burden

This wasn't my bargain!!!
This wasn't my ideal wish!!!
This wasn't my precious twinkle tune!!!

Yet I say 'patience is my only remedy'
only tears makes my day brighter
nothing left but an empty box called FEELINGS
Silence now my greatest enemy...
only my pen to lay down my expression
they say words are the greatest evidence for action


I WISH FEELINGS,
can turn into roses...so they would be cherished
can turn into twin... so that a love like never before can be felt
it seems my feelings bears no roots
calling upon its author
yet it holds a tree which shatters mingling leaves
I want to close my eyes but will I sleep?
I just want to wake up and see my world in a new universe
BUT all I get at the end is my pen and
feelings are so long gone
conquered is my heart.....for my feelings count no more!!!!

Sigh...

Sorry guys the writing looks rough and there might be mistakes too,i'm not in the mood to proof read so bear with me. Luv y'all.

PS: Anyone watching The Vampire Diaries? if you are not please do,i tell you its the bomb!

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